Beyond Joyful

God, the Maker of all things from the smallest quark to the largest galaxy, loves me (Genesis 1:31; John 3:16-17). That in itself blows my mind. He cares about all the details of my life. This absolutely amazes me. How can that even be possible? He has such large things to manage. The very existence of time is in His control because He is outside of time. He knows all things from the beginning to the end (Isaiah 46:9-10; Revelation 21:6). He knows the choices that I will make tomorrow, whether good or bad, and He will make those choices work out for good (Romans 3:38). How? I have no idea. If I understood everything that He does, He wouldn't be much of a God, would He? I only know that I am extremely thankful for Him and the love and grace He has shown me. 

So here is the news of today, concerning the MRI and doctor appointments. I am beyond joyful! My MRI was stable and it has been for a while. I asked my doctor what this meant since my brain tumors have been stable for so long. He said it's probably just scar tissue. I asked him if that meant the tumors were gone. He said probably so! That just doesn't happen with brain cancer! PRAISE GOD THROUGH WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!!! When he left the room, I literally broke down, cried, and couldn't praise God enough! I am truly a walking miracle!!

We also discussed whether I should stop chemo treatments. He said we could, but it might come back. My breast cancer doctor agreed. Since I don't have major side effects from the chemo, we decided that "if it ain't broke, don't fix it!" So I will continue taking chemo pills, but I won't be as concerned when I forget to take a dose. God is SO good!!

So for now, I can plan for the future. I haven't felt like I can really do that in a long time. Will those plans come to fruition? Maybe not, but I can dream again. So look out! Who knows what I'll be up to! But whatever it is, I will glorify Him. THANK YOU LORD JESUS!!!

"And God saw everything that He had made, and behold, it was very good. And there was evening and there was morning, the sixth day." ~ Genesis 1:31

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through Him." ~ John 3:16-17

"Remember the former things of old; for I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like Me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all My purpose." ~ Isaiah 46:9-10

'And He said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment.' ~ Revelation 21:6 

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose." ~ Romans 8:28 

Tired, but Joyful! 🙌🙌

Reminders

This time of year can be quite challenging. I like the fact that Facebook keeps up with your memories from previous years' posts, but it is also a tough reminder at times. June marks 12 years since my cancer journey reignited, 24 years since the cancer journey began, and 34 years since my first Chiari surgery. But through it all, God has been with me every step of the way. He has been my constant companion, even in the hardest of times. I'm reminded of how even Elijah wanted the Lord to take his life at one point, but God reminded Him that He wasn't through with him yet. His story wasn't complete, and mine isn't either. As long as there is breath in my lungs, He will use me in some way and I will use that breath to glorify Him. As 139:14 states, "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

Today's Facebook memory from June 29, 2010

I wanted to update you concerning my doctor appointment. After examining the PET/CT scans, the doctor feels that my cancer has probably returned. I'm going to be admitted to UAB today so they can do a biopsy and figure out what's going on with my throat and everything else. Please join me as I pray. My God is good, and He will bring me through anything and everything.

Thankful

Wow. It has been a REALLY long time since I posted! So much has changed! We lived through a pandemic (well, almost), my grandchildren are much bigger, Lucy started and completed Kindergarten, Linda passed away--unbelievable! I just haven't felt like writing. I'm still having lots of pain. Much of it is the terrible headaches I have, but I also have a lot of back pain now. But my scans are still good. One of my doctors even said I'm doing "weirdly well"--my first official weird diagnosis! 

Because of the pandemic, I've been able to do telehealth visits with my doctors. I've had my scans done here in Huntsville and then zoom with them. However, I had my first visit with my breast cancer doctor in February and will have one with my brain cancer doctor in October. They're both so amazed at how well I'm doing. However, I know why I am--it's because of the Great I AM!! For some reason, He is still using me. Only He knows my expiration date. When it's time for me to go Home, that's when I'll go! And I can't wait to bow at His Feet. Can you just imagine? Wow! 

I really don't have much to say. God is good, and I am still here. So thankful for His goodness!

"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under Heaven." ~ Ecclesiastes 3:1