As I look back over my life, I know that God has ALWAYS been there for me. Yes, I've had quite a few bumps in the road, but most of us have. Today, I'm suffering from one of my lovely headaches. Yay me. However, I know I'm blessed. It's REALLY easy to get down in the dumps when the pain is there, but I need to count my blessings. That's the only way I can get through it.
I was recently talking to a Facebook friend about the passing of her mother. Her mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, it went in remission, returned to her bone and lungs last May, they think it progressed to her brain, and she passed in March. Sound familiar? I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1998, it returned in 2010 to my bone and lung, spread to my brain in 2015, yet I'm still here. Why am I here while others with very similar conditions aren't? I don't know. But I know Who does, and I just have to trust in that. I have to trust that He uses each of us and the circumstances in which we find ourselves in very unique ways. I also know that may not provide much comfort to those who have lost loved ones to cancer or to anything else. They may ask "Why did You take _____ when You didn't take her?" and I get that. So many questions. Yet, He is the Potter and we are the clay. He is God and we are not. His thoughts and ways are SO much greater than ours. He knows EVERY little thing that is happening RIGHT NOW! Unbelievable! He's like a conductor of an orchestra. Some instruments sound okay by themselves, while others do not. However, when we put them all together, oh what a symphony that can be created! You and I are part of a TREMENDOUSLY large symphony and your part matters greatly. Without you, without me, the symphony wouldn't be the same. Even when we are no longer physically present in this world, our music continues to play. We have no idea how far our influence has reached.
So, even though I have no idea why this is happening to me or to others, I praise Him. I may not feel like it most of the time, but I have to remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
"I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~ Psalm 139:14
"But now, O LORD, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You are out potter; we are all the work of Your hand." ~ Isaiah 64:8
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts; neither are your ways My ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts." ~ Isaiah 55:8-9
"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." ~ John 14:27
