Feeling Good!

I just thought everyone would like to know that I've been feeling good the last couple of days. Sometimes I feel like I mostly post when I'm feeling bad, so I wanted you to know that I have good days too! God is good!

Spoon theory

I found this article and wanted to share it. It explains how I feel a lot.

http://www.pdfdownload.org/pdf2html/pdf2html.php?url=http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/navigation/BYDLS-TheSpoonTheory.pdf&images=yes

Blessings

"God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything." This is what was on my daily calendar today. Wow. Sometimes I don't feel blessed. I have cancer. I've been in a lot of pain since my treatment Monday. I started hurting a few days before the treatment, and I think the Zometa has intensified the pain. It's for my bones but often causes soreness and flu-like symptoms for a few days after the treatment. The pain is mainly in my neck and shoulder blades. It feels like the pain from the Chiari surgeries I had in 1988 and 2001. Those surgeries were on my head and neck. I was having trouble with double vision, headaches, and my equilibrium. I still have trouble with those things, but the surgeries helped to slow the progress down. I guess that's another blog post altogether if you want to know more about it.

The thing is, I don't always feel blessed, but I know I am. "God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything." That's a powerful statement. Blessings can come in many ways. We can be blessed by waking up late, which may keep us from being in an awful accident on the way to work; we can be blessed by having a job that we can't stand, but it puts us in contact with people who don't have Jesus; and we can be blessed with cancer so we can appreciate life even more. Sometimes it's a challenge to appreciate life when you're in pain and don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I do. I appreciate the fact that I get to see the autumn leaves on the trees; that I get to talk to my children about their lives; that I have a husband who loves me and supports me throughout everything; and that I have been blessed with an avenue to reach out to so many. God did not give me cancer, but He allowed it to happen. Why? I don't know except that so many of you are so wonderful and have told me how much my faith, courage, and strength means to you. Believe me, I do not feel courageous or strong, and I don't have enough faith to fill a thimble, but I know God takes care of me every single day. One day He'll bring me home and my faith will be complete.  

I want to share the words to a song that has become so meaningful to me. It's called "Blessings" by Laura Story. Check it out on YouTube.

                                                             "Blessings"

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

I had planned to post a few days ago about the good news that I received at the doctor's office this week, but I've been hurting so much that I just haven't. I had another CT scan, and it showed that the cancer is stable. My doctor took me off the daily chemo pills three weeks ago because of the fatigue that I have and the fact the the skin around my nails is splitting and bleeding. She said since the disease has been stable, now is a good time to take a break from the chemo. I'm still getting the Herceptin and Zometa treatments every three weeks, but I just won't take the chemo pills for a while. I'll certainly keep you abreast of the situation. God is so good. He is faithful all the way through thick and thin. Don't ever forget that--no matter what you are dealing with. He loves you more than you can possibly imagine.