Ok. So I went to the doctor today, had a CT scan, and an infusion treatment. News? I have new cancer lesions in my lungs and one that was already there has grown. I'm not exactly a happy camper. However, on the bright side, my doctor said that although she's not happy, this isn't devastating news. It happens. The prognosis really hasn't changed, but it does explain why I've been so much more weak and tired lately. I will begin a new regimen of chemo in two weeks. Woo-hoo! Time to learn about more side effects.
I'm not surprised. It's been increasingly difficult for me to bounce back from each treatment. I was dreading today because I felt the news would not be good. Does this show a lack of faith? I don't think so. I know that God can take away this cancer any time. I know that with every ounce of my being. I also know that He often allows us to endure hardships for our ultimate good or for the good of others. This life isn't about us. It never has been. It's about Him. It's about what we can do for Him through our love of others. Do I get angry because this is the road that has been set before me? You better believe it. Do I deserve this road? You better believe it, and much more. I'm glad I don't get what I deserve. If I got what I deserve, I'd die in excruciating pain and go to an eternity of even worse pain. I'm so glad I don't get what I deserve! God is so good!!
Enjoy each day. Live life to the fullest. Do His will. He loves you beyond reason.
You are an amazing woman with amazing faith and an amazing testimony. I am so blessed with the gift of your friendship and the blending of our two families. God is using you to teach me things I need to learn. Love you! Lisa
ReplyDeleteThank you Lisa. I am so thankful for you guys as well. He may have brought David and Eva together, but He brought us together as well. I appreciate the fact that I know I can talk to you and for the precious times we have together as your house. Love you girl!
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