Rest!

I've been doing fairly well recently. I'm out of school for the summer, so I'm getting more rest than I normally get so that has helped a lot. I've actually been able to clean my house! That isn't something I am able to do very often during the school year so if you come by for a visit between August and May, be prepared. :) 

I had a treatment Monday so I'm not feeling as well as I did last week, but I'm sure I will soon. I feel better than I do after treatments that I have during the school year, however. God is so good to give me this rest!

On June 30, I plan to sing a special at my church. I haven't done this in over 3 1/2 years. Between losing my voice and the cancer returning, I've been through quite a bit since then. I plan to share a portion of my story as well. Everybody has a story to tell. Each one molds us into who we are. The question is, do we allow God to use us through those stories? We really don't know what trials and tribulations are. Jesus paid it ALL. All to Him I owe. Please pray that I will have the strength and courage to share what Christ leads me to share and to focus on bringing glory to Him. He's all that matters.

The best laid plans...

Wow. I can't believe it has been so long since I have blogged. I know some of you keep up with me on facebook, but others keep up with me on here. To the second group, I do apologize. I remember about a year ago stating that I was going to try to submit an entry each Saturday. Oh well. The best laid plans...

So what's up with me? I've been doing fairly well. A couple of months ago, my doctor said that since my scans had been consistently showing that my cancer is stable, I could start coming every 4-5 weeks instead of every three for a treatment. I was so excited! I do get tired of making a trip to Birmingham every three weeks. It can be quite depressing. Last month, however, I was a bit dehydrated so I could not receive the Zometa. As a reminder, I receive Zometa to help reduce or delay complications the cancer can cause because it spread to my bones. It also helps with the bone pain. I'm supposed to drink a lot of water to help the Zometa secrete from my body properly. I keep a water bottle with me, but I obviously had not been drinking enough. Since then I have been drinking much more than before. I had a treatment Thursday and was no longer dehydrated. Yay! I've been having a lot of bone pain lately, so hopefully receiving the Zometa will help. Keep praying!

In the meantime, just remember that God's plan is always best. I know that all of this is part of His plan. I don't like it right now, but I know it's best and will work out for good. No matter what you may be going through, if you are His it will be okay in the end. As Romans 8:28 states, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." Until next time!

So Much Higher

Today, I was reminded by a dear friend just how God always works everything out for His glory and how He is always in control. He told me how he stopped by a friend's house one night after bringing us dinner and invited him to church. They talked a little about living the "right way." His friend started coming to church and told him tonight that he wouldn't be in church if my friend had not stopped by to talk to him. So, to sum it up, if I didn't have cancer, my friend wouldn't have brought me dinner that night and wouldn't have stopped by his friend's house and his friend wouldn't be in church today. I then shared a couple of stories with him, so I'll share them here.

The first time I had cancer, my sister started going to church with me. She was already a member at another church, but she wanted to attend with me to show me more love and support. Her husband started attending with her to support me as well. He had not attended church for many years. She had been praying that he would come back to God for the 15 years that she had known him. He kept attending and eventually joined the church. Later, he started working with the children at church. My sister had always wanted children but couldn't have them. Her husband had not minded because he didn't really want any. After working with children at church, he started to really like being around kids. They decided to adopt and adopted two children from Russia. After my sister was killed, they moved to Mississippi to be closer to his dad. The two children eventually got saved and they are all quite active in church. That makes at least three people who came to Christ because of my cancer. But how many others have been saved because of the ripple effect of these three? I may never know in this life, but I believe that one day I will! God is SO good!

Here's another example: a friend attended Judgment Seat with us one year and came back to Christ. He's now about to leave to do some missionary work on the other side of the world. The fact that we took him to Judgment Seat could eternally impact people across the globe! God is just SO good!It's very easy to get down and question why I have to go through this, but God always has an answer. 

Like I often tell my small group, a hundred years from now it won't matter that I had cancer. What will matter is how I respond to it. Our responses to our circumstances have a ripple effect to everyone around us. Try to remember that when you are having a tough day. God's ways are so much higher than our ways. As Isaiah 55:8-9 says, "'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,' declares the LORD. 'As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thought than your thoughts.'" From my viewpoint, having cancer stinks; but from God's viewpoint, it may mean salvation for some. He's just SO good!!

The day after...

I'm not feeling well today. I went to school but probably shouldn't have. I took it as easy as I could. I am quite blessed to be a gifted teacher so I don't have students all day long. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy teaching my students, but I need rest after a treatment. Students don't exactly allow you to rest! The teachers with whom I work are good about allowing me to cancel my classes if I'm not feeling well, but I can probably count on one hand the number of times I've done this. Since I am the lead gifted specialist in our system, I don't have classes on Friday because I have a lot of "lead" responsibilities to take care of. Today is Friday, so it works out well that I usually have treatments on Thursday. Just keep me in your prayers. God is so good, but I am so tired.

Fulfillment

I have a treatment tomorrow. Pooh! I don't enjoy them! I'm very thankful for the medicine that is prolonging my life, but it does get old traveling to Birmingham every three weeks. Neal is so wonderful. He helps me make the best of it. He makes that trek with me each time, and we always stop by Chick-Fil-A on the way home so I can get a strawberry milkshake. I've been going to UAB to receive cancer treatments for over two years now, and I can count on one hand the number of times he hasn't gone. We both feel so strange if he does not go. He's my life partner and he's always been there for me. I was having health problems before we even married and had to have major surgery two years after we married. He's always been by my side to support me and I love him dearly. There aren't too many people who really mean those vows when they marry. When the going gets tough, the not so tough often get going. Not him. He loves me like no one else in this world ever has or could. I am so thankful for my sweet husband and I love him dearly. God did not give me cancer. He allowed it to happen to fulfill His purpose. He has taken care of me through it all, and one of the ways is by giving me the husband that I have. I am truly a blessed woman. LORD, just please help me to remember to look for You in everything and to know that this is Your will so that I can fulfill Your plan.

Feeling Good!

I just thought everyone would like to know that I've been feeling good the last couple of days. Sometimes I feel like I mostly post when I'm feeling bad, so I wanted you to know that I have good days too! God is good!

Spoon theory

I found this article and wanted to share it. It explains how I feel a lot.

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