The last post I wrote was largely about dealing with insurance companies and the fact that the Tykerb (one of the chemo pills I take) had not been approved. Well, praise the Lord, it's been approved now. However, the copay could possibly increase from $25 to $150. It's already $150 for the Xeloda (other chemo pill) that I take. And that's just two of the medications that I take. I'm at the point of saying, just forget it. It's ridiculous. Why is my life being summed up on someone's bottom line? I am on a fixed income and can barely afford what I'm paying for now. I don't understand why the life of someone who can afford medication is worth saving more than mine. Can someone please explain that to me?
I'm sorry, but this news is quite fresh. I'm tired. I just want to go Home. I'm tired of being a burden to my family. Of course, they're wonderful and would tell you that I'm not, but I can't help feeling that way. It's been almost 19 years now. I just want it to stop.
I need to breathe Him in and remember His goodness and faithfulness. I'm posting several verses that I need to read and hear.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." ~ 1 Peter 5:7
"For with God, nothing shall be impossible." ~ Luke 1:37
"The faithful love of the Lord never ends." ~ Lamentations 3:22
"In His kindness, God called you to share in His eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, He will restore, support, and strengthen you, and He will place you on a firm foundation." ~ 1 Peter 5:10
"God showed how much He loved us by sending His One and Only Son into the world so that we may have eternal life through Him." ~ 1 John 4:9
"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." ~ Hebrews 11:1
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." ~ James 1:2-3
"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans."
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." ~ Romans 8: 18, 26, and 28
"And He said to His disciples, 'For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life’s span? If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith! And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying. For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; but your Father knows that you need these things. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be added to you.' " ~ Luke 12:22-31
I could go on and on. Basically, God is faithful. He is loving. He cares. But I'm still tired. Please keep me in your prayers.
But hey. Let's end on a happy note. Here's a happy picture of Neal, Lucy, and me.
What an inspiration you are! Keep holding on, God has a purpose! A friend in Christ.
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